some things change, some don't

Time flies and with it so many changes come, but some things remain unchanged. I just read this, something I wrote in January of 2009. Two and a half years later and all I can say is wow, this means so much to me still... as if I just wrote it for the 1st time. Thank you Lord for Your steadfast faithfulness.


I had dreams you know - 1/31/2009

Goals, aspirations, great things I wanted to achieve. Places to go, people to see. Some grand adventure to be a part of. High school found me dreaming of becoming an engineer as I took every technology course it offered. Senior year found me dreaming of becoming a photographer as I was given the gift of my first digital camera for Christmas. I brought life to objects and places people wouldn't usually think to capture on film.

I dreamed of graduating school, paying off my loans, and getting my own place. I thought of traveling the world with a camera and selling my photos, showing the world the beauty that still remained.

A year into college, I discovered that engineering wasn’t creative enough for me. I looked into photography, developing my own film, yes, that was it. I changed majors and let my inner artist free. I enjoyed every minute, though pencil to paper barely produced stick figures, with a computer I could create and design to no end.

I graduated, with no job nonetheless. But I did not fear, God had a plan. I traveled. Yes, Spain, I fell in love with the mountains. The Dominican Republic, well, it changed me, it broke me. Poverty. I came back changed.

The job came, it was God's plan, it wasn’t my plan. But His plan is always greater and more fulfilling.

So I have these dreams, aspirations, the desire to join in some grand adventure. But for a moment I forgot about them and settled into the routine of a job and loans. But my heart has been awakened. I’m letting it dream big once again.

And as I sit here, my room filled with the sounds of classical music, I’m thankful that God has made me just as I am… with these dreams, these goals, and these desires.