the struggles of a satisfied yet unsatisfied corporate employee...
For 5 1/2 years I've held the same job. some days I hate it. some days I like it. After all, I have great coworkers, I just don't often have enough work to keep me busy. That makes for LONG days. I like to be challenged, I like to learn, I want to grow.
This week I saw a job posting for something that would be a big move up. I thought maybe it was for me, I spoke with my boss and told her I was going to apply. But you see, the application, resume, portfolio and references were due in less than 2 days. After a day of fighting within myself, saying... I can do this, I don't want to do this, I would be busier than where I am now... but what if I hated the job... and so on and so forth. 2 nights of restless sleep. 2 days of prayer... of screaming "oh God, what is Your will?"
Now, I know applying for a position does not equate to ACCEPTING the position. I get that. But my heart felt more and more it wasn't for me. So I came into work today with a new attitude... maybe it's the glorious sun shinning, but maybe it's the peace and joy of being in God's will.
And I know in my heart once again, that this world is not my home.
This week I saw a job posting for something that would be a big move up. I thought maybe it was for me, I spoke with my boss and told her I was going to apply. But you see, the application, resume, portfolio and references were due in less than 2 days. After a day of fighting within myself, saying... I can do this, I don't want to do this, I would be busier than where I am now... but what if I hated the job... and so on and so forth. 2 nights of restless sleep. 2 days of prayer... of screaming "oh God, what is Your will?"
Now, I know applying for a position does not equate to ACCEPTING the position. I get that. But my heart felt more and more it wasn't for me. So I came into work today with a new attitude... maybe it's the glorious sun shinning, but maybe it's the peace and joy of being in God's will.
And I know in my heart once again, that this world is not my home.
I will bless the Lord at all times;
His praise shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul shall make its boast in the Lord;
The humble shall hear of it and be glad.
Oh, magnify the Lord with me,
And let us exalt His name together.
Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good;
Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
Oh, fear the Lord, you His saints!
There is no want to those who fear Him.
The young lions lack and suffer hunger;
But those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing.
Psalm 34:1-3, 8-10
